Edward Cullen.

As I think about the past week of not being online, I have proven to myself that I can live without Myspace, Blogspot, Facebook, Google (yes I am in love with Google) and even the Jonas Brothers. It may sound shocking since I claimed that I am diagnosed with an OJD, Obsessive Jonas Disorder for those who don't speak the Jonas language. I was actually quite proud of myself for I am able to restrain myself from sitting infront of the computer and staring at my desktop with a Jonas Brothers wallpaper. And by the way, it is not a Jonas Brothers wallpaper anymore. Guilty as charged, it happens to be Edward Cullen's face that stares back at anyone who looks at my desktop. Yes, as ridiculously as it may sound, I am now lured and trapped inside the Twilight mania. As a matter of fact, all of my sisters and I are reading the most famous series besides Harry Potter (in which I am also a huge fan, talk about being a nerd).

If you have read my past blog about my flair in Facebook, I truly mean it when I said that the boyfriend standards has dramatically increased. One name changed it all, Edward Cullen. Silly as it may sound, but this teenage vampire shows that chivalry is not dead. Sounds ironic, right? For a bloodsucker to be chivalric. Often, vampires are seen to be out-of-control monsters who suck the blood of an innocent human being, but Edward is portrayed differently. I will not be summarizing the story for those who haven't heard or read the story because I am not capable of doing so. Summarizing the story sucks out the fun, thrill and toe curling moments of the novel. Great word to use while speaking of a fictional vampire, "sucks." Lol.

I watched the two trailers of the movie version and I am beyond thirsty to see it. Ha oh how I enjoy playing with words. Nerd genes attacking. Anyway, I had a heated argument with my sister about Robert Pattinson (who plays Edward in the movie); she believes that he doesn't fit the character, but I argued that he is perfect for the role. Well, I am victorious. After seeing the previews, she had changed her mind.

Stepping to a new path, I've always had a crush on Robert with his seductive British accent. He was in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire as Cedric Diggory. Althought, I believe that his role as Edward is way better than being Cedric, who was murdered by Voldemort. Eekkkkk. I am totally crushing, silly teenage crushes. Haha. Oh & I somewhat declared that he might have taken Joe Jonas' spot.

Well maybe not.

On the other hand, I wasn't able to have an overview about the concert I went to last week. The Burning Up concert was something that cannot be describe in words such as awesome and amazing for those words are too simple to explain the feeling of being in the concert. Anxiously waiting on my seats with my toes tapping along, paying close attention to the little details that surrounds me, intesifying feeling rushes through my vein with the wind serenely blowing through my hair causing me to breathe in a pattern I could not comprehend, the butterflies flying inside my being, intently listening to the words coming out of the people behind me, turning around to catch a glimpse of the girls who are going through the same jittering experience as I do, now that's something that the words "awesome" and "amazing" cannot describe. Like said, there's not a word that can amount to the emotion I was enduring while waiting for the concert to start and during the performances.

However, irritation did play a role on my night. Some girls were irking me for they just sat around like idiots while most of the us were jumping up and down with a large amount of adrenaline running through our system. Heck, even this one lady who seems to be about in her mid-thirty was ecstatic. She danced around like she was a teenage girl again. She sang along with the rest of us, and she was pretty funny. She asked me so many questions about the boys, from their age to their heritage. Ha, she was a cute lady and I enjoyed her company.

I would post pictures from the concert, but sadly our camera was being a butthead and didn't capture good photographs. Maybe next time.

Whoa I feel like this blog is long enough, I shall head off and sleep. Salut.

Overly excited Edward lover,

Jhay

Pushing Me Away.

*FYI: I made that video. =)

Whohoo! Today's the day of the concert and I am more than excited. I finally decided on what to wear, a simple V-neck shirt from Urban Outfitters that says "Vote '08," my black vest with different buttons (including one that says "FRANKLIN's fight against HATE," which reminds me of Frankie), black leggings that look like a pair of super tight skinnys and my chucks (of course, I wear it all the time, even when I go golfing). This time I didn't make the boys anything because I don't see the point of doing that, since I don't have m&g passes anyway. However, if God treats me good today, I'll be able to convince my dad to drive me Target to buy some poster boards for Jack Lawless (their drummer). I was shocked when some Jonas fans don't recognize him, then the shockness grew into determination that I'll be cheering for him. I think he deserves some attention. In my friends' words, "He got bars," or whatever they say when you're an amazing drummer. I received an advice that I should try to be at the venue a couple of hours before the concert starts, so I'm thinking I'll leave the house around 2, since it's around an hour away. Hopefully I'll be able to meet new people just like the previous concert I went to.

Furthermore, I don't really have the strength to blabble on, therefore I'll lay down and read the rest of TWILIGHT (which by the way is becoming better and better). SALUT MES AMIS.

A Jack Lawless & Twilight fan,

Jhay

Flair.

I'm finally learning how to fully use Facebook. As a matter of fact, I even made a Flair. Isn't it awesome? If you look closely on the picture I've provided, you can see some of my favorite bands (Jonas Brothers, We the Kings, The Maine & Metro Station). I'm so psyched about this flair that I'm dedicating this blog for it. Haha. One of the things that I find interesting while creating it was how much Jonas Brothers, Harry Potter and Twilight buttons were everywhere, my eyes literally twinkled. Lol. My sister just recently purchased the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer and she read the book in one day, so now I'm reading it. It's very interesting and I recommend it for everyone. Sigh. Talk about Edward being the perfect boyfriend; I bet a lot of girls who read this novel must be in love with him and are hoping that he's their boyfriend. Ha. With this book out and the movie being made, the boyfriend standards had and will continuously increase. My advice to all the boys or men out there, read the book and learn from it, I'm sure you'll gain some respect from many girls.

On the other hand, I've uploaded some pictures on my Facebook, though, I didn't feel like creating different albums, so I just put them in the main one. Lol. I am easily fascinated, hence the tone of excitement is all over this blog. Oh oh oh! One more night until I see the Jonas Brothers, even though I didn't win meet and greet passes and have the best seat, I'm still happy that I will be able to see the inspiring brothers. They are inspirational to many teens, well in my point of view they are, therefore I could careless about the haters. This is weird, I'm running out of things to say. Oh well. I'll leave this blog as it is. Au Revoir dudes!

The excited,

Jhay

Facebook anyone?

After strongly ignoring my Facebook for a year, I've come to my senses and realized that I should start using it again. (Besides the fact that UC Davis told me to create one, since it's a way for college students to keep in touch). I logged on to my account about thirty minutes ago, and I was overwhelmed by the amount of friend requests and those variety of activity requests that I've received. I practically ignored most of the activities because they take too long to upload, and somehow they lag my computer. I scan through the friend requests, and I was utterly shock of how many people I personally know, some are from middle school and the rest are from high school. Amazing. I think Facebook is better than Myspace when it comes to connecting friends, and protecting ones privacy. However, Myspace is easier for me to navigate; it may have something to do with the fact that I barely use Facebook. Eh I'm guessing that'll change after I try to make myself be familiar with the website. I'm sure it won't be too hard to understand how to fix things around within my profile. Right? For the goodness of humanity, please someone tell me it will be easy as 1 2 3. Ugh. Oh well, I'll explore Facebook and hope to find something interesting. In a meantime, I'll check on my niece, then go to bed (I hope my body is weary enough to put me to sleep, talk about being insomniac).

The confuse facebook head,

Jhay

Thought of the day before I sleep.

This was my text message for my friend Lara:

"...Well as we aged we tend to lose track of who we are because we're coping with the sudden changes. We search for our identity and where we really should be (because we are lost in the labyrinth of the process). Ups and downs are part of life, that's what makes one feel alive - to have the chance to experience different situations and learn from them along the way; it is also the reason for maturity. You'll be fine as long as you're not afraid to tackle what is being offered."

Restless,

Jhay

I can't wait 'till Burning Up Tour.

I have about 4 more days until the concert, and I'm anxiously counting the days. For those non-Jonas Brothers fan, you probably wouldn't understand the state I am in. Those boys are addicting, I'm serious. I could recall staying up for two days, meaning no sleep what-so-ever because I was excited for the concert they had in Natomas, California. In addition to that, my sister, friend and I were busy making them home made gifts, which took most of our New Years Eve (afternoon and night); the capes we made came out great! Anyway, I'm not supposed to be watching clips from other fans who had already seen their Burning Up Tour (in their city), but I can't help it. Besides those guys have so much surprises for their fans, they perform differently in different cities(but always comes out amazing).

At this moment, "Love Bug" (click the title)is on repeat, I love the part where Joe was tap dancing. I swear that boy surprises me all the time with his talents; he could play several instruments, he can act, sing (obviously) and the newest addition, tap dancing. Even my four day old niece knows that Joe is an awesome artist, and I believe that he is her favorite Jonas. While babysitting her yesterday, I created a playlist (all Jonas songs) for us to listen to and she was calmed and relaxed. Then my mom asked her who's her favorite brother, she said Kevin and Nick's names, but didn't receive a reaction. However, when Joe's named was mentioned, my niece kept sneezing and stuff. Cute stuff. Oh and I think "Higher Love" by Nick Jonas is her favorite from the playlist for when we were listening to the song, she was smiling from ear to ear. Haha. Amazing, my entire family is contaminated with Jonas Fever, well in Aeriel and I's case, we have OJDisorder.

Going back to the concert, I'm super keen, but I don't know what to wear. This totally bums out. And my mom told me that Sleep Train Amp. is an open venue, hence the heat will kill me. Duh. I live in freaking NorCal where it's hot all day everyday, plus the air is not clean due to the fire incidents that has been happening lately. I think I'll bring a lot of water. I have to check and print out my tickets online, ha. I heard other bands might be playing since its the End FEST, hopefully they're good bands. Besides the Jonas Brothers, I'm looking forward on seeing Demi Lovato. That girl is talented beyond belief, and get this, she's only 15. Wow right? Definitely.

Straying away from the topic, I would like to announce to the world that I am suffereing from insomnia attacks. Either that or my great great grandparents are vampires and they passed on some of their vampire genes to me, but then again that's impossible, therefore I'm leaning towards the fact that I'm insomniac. Another random fact, I haven't had fastfood in a while, which I am proud of. Lol. Although, I could go for some fries and Hazelnut Iced Coffee, yum.

Anywho, I'll be logging off now, jump on my bed and beg my body for some peace of mind, and fall asleep. If it refuses to let me have some resting, then I'll have to do about 1000 push-ups and 1000 jumping jacks. If that plan don't work, then I guess I'll have to go back to the classical counting of sheeps. =)

<3Jhay

Looking Back....

I wrote this blog when I was in 9th grade, so bare with me as I travel back in the days of grammar errors. Haha.

“Well I was talking` to two different people the other night & they both had different stories but some how they connect. The other individual is just starting` to fall in love while the other one just fall out of love (well still trying` to move on). The things that they mentioned made me think for hours because I had never been through those things. Therefore, I started writing` & believe me I really don’t know if I make sense but I just want to let my thoughts out in the public. I am hopeful that some people can relate to what I have to say.

Here it goes:

Why is love so complicated? I mean you think you found the right person that will treat you as if you’re their queen, but then they end up hurting you, making you cry before going` to sleep, killing you slowly from all the pain they put you through. Then you can’t stand it anymore, so you try your hardest to leave that person, but it seems like you can’t. It seems like something is holding you back. Is it because your feelings for him are so strong that they just will not fade away or are you just so used to loving that person and don’t know how to move on? When you finally move on, the same cycle happens. You fall, then end up getting hurt because the person you fell in love with didn’t catch you or they caught you and dropped you. It is true that love is pain and pain is love. Without love, there will be no pain, and without pain, love will not exist. We suffer for the one we love. People say that if you are in love, you simply don’t see a lot of things; you tend to act foolish. You become blind from reality because all you think about is the "perfect world" you and your behalf "have.” People warn you, but you don’t listen because you only hear and think about what will make HIM happy. Every time the person you are in love with hurts you, you still give him a chance because you try to be positive with your relationship. Giving chances are great, but don’t be so dumb and keep letting him hurt you from all the mistakes he made. Don’t spoil the one you "love" by always taking him back, because this relationship will lead you to no where but more suffering and pain. Take control and leave him. Let him know how much he hurt you. Let him suffer, but even if you do this, you do not always seem to be happy. You want to know why? It’s because they still have a piece of your heart and it will take you a very long time to actually gain that piece back, but for now just wait and be patient because another person will come and fill up that missing piece in your heart. This is the cycle of love at least in my point of view. I am not sure if everyone feels or thinks the same way as I do, so I apologize if you don’t agree with me.

To be honest with you I had never been through this, I have never fall in love yet. There are moments when I think about this, it scares the crap out of me. I fear that when the time for me to fall in love and experience the things that are connected to the word "love" I would not be as strong as others. I am scared to get hurt, to get burn, to go through the pain that love brings us. I really think that love is such a strong word and can be misuse. Some may not even understand the word. Many had asked me to define love, but I am sorry I can’t fully define it. However, the cliches are just running through my head: love is blind, love is a strong emotion, love is pain and pain is love, love is a deep, tender feeling of affection toward a person. Love has so much meaning. It somehow varies from people to people. Although, which one is the real and true way to define such word? Until now I can’t answer my own question for I have never love anyone before ( I’m talking about not a family member or my friends). Well I know someday I will, but that someday is not going to be around yet.”

Wow, so much has changed ever since I wrote that little blog about love. I have finally understood the emotions that come when you have strong emotions toward (it doesn't have to be love, but something close to it - infatuation) someone. It is really hard to move on and to find someone new, but lately I've come to a conclusion that moving on doesn't mean finding and searching for someone new. Moving on is when you start realizing that there's more out there (opportunities to enjoy life) besides having a relationship with someone(boyfriend/girlfriend). It's not necessary to find another person to say that you had fully moved on, all that is needed is the strength to tackle more in life, finding that one true thing that you are good and dedicated to (for example, trying to focus more to your education or learning a thing or two about life).

<3Jhay